One of my personal struggles in my marriage is that I feel that I am not getting enough support to pursue my dreams. I would like to learn to meet my need for personal and proffessional growth in ways that allow me to feel that I am still engaging for my family. As a thinking woman who also values family, it is a constant battle not to become bitter and feel trapped by the limitations I feel my marriage (not to be confused with mamahood conflicts) has placed on my personal development. I have noticed that many of the marriage books I have been reading recently focus on communication. One pattern that seems to be emerging is that after I read these books our marriage may get better temporarily in that we argue less, however I am still for some reason left feeling angry and distant from my spouse.
My husband nodded and appeared supportive but said little . I decided to take the conversation further in an attempt to "draw" him out. I wanted to talk about shared goals, and things that we could think of doing or working toward together rather than just focusing on myself so much. Here's a short clip from that conversation.
Me: What is your plan for our future?
Him: I would like to continue working, get a better position at a better company.
Me: Do you have any other goals?
Him: What do you mean?
Me: Personal goals?
Him: Guys don't really think like that.
Me: Huh?
From this conversation I was able to identify two barriers to creating a shared identity
- My inablity to shut my blabber mouth and let my husband watch a well earned television show in peace.
- A lack of shared goals.
Here's what I learned from the Marry Blogger
- Goals should be created seperately and then combined
- Goals should be divided into pre determined categories (i.e. education/career, health and fitness, things to try/do, and financial)
- Goals should be challenging and specific.
- Consciously applying some of the same principals that I use in personal growth and development can also benefit my marriage